I first want to apologies for leaving suddenly again. But this time, i have a good "excuse" for my absence..
So recently this month, i lost my GrandFather.
I don't know much about the details but all i know is that he had a sudden heart attack and passed away
while he was asleep.
This whole suddenly change in events has impacted my life like a bomb.
I had never experienced any one of my loved actually pass away.
It was a hard progress. for me and for my whole family.
it came sudden and to this day i feel so dumb for thinking he was only sick.
When we first heard about it my mother was balling her eyes out, i simply thought that he was really sick and he had to hope for the best.
I soon lost that thought after i realized we visited my uncle and did a whole prayer. I was still confused on what was going on. I'm not the brightest child so of course i asked what happened when we were finished praying and thats when i got the news.
I may have no had my grandpa with me all my life.
but he's been there through my childhood and helped me so much.
But what hurts the most
the absolute most is that when i heard about it, just before that day i was talking to him, he seemed fine.
I now know how easily a life can end
and I've been bearing it all this week, holding in my tears and such. It hurts. i honeslty tried to keep my positivity up to its normality but i just cant.
not knowing that on that day
that day when i was just video chatting with him
was going to be my last...